Busy Monday

I felt so relieved after the turmoil last week. It has been like an awful circle for years: hope, disappointment and hurt again and again. I am so glad that I had the courage to break the circle and get the people who hurt me out of my life. It took tears and years to do that because they are my parents.

By posting the article last week about those unpleasant old days, I felt like getting those bad things into a trash bag and relieving the burden forever. I then wrote my parents a letter telling them how deeply they hurt my feelings all these years. I deleted their reply without reading it. I had a good sleep that night.

Of the past 33 years, I probably only spent 3-5 years with them according to my memory, and the rest with my grandparents before I left home for a boarding school at an age of 14. Now it's over; I am happy about it. I don't need those parents who hurt me and take advantage of me all the time. I have God in my heart who knows everything, understands and blesses me.

It's been a busy Monday at work. I did something stupid at work. But as John said, never mind. Everyone does stupid things sometimes. Put those behind and don't repeat mistakes. I plan to read a few Chinese books tonight. I'll probably find the original English versions for some. It's still much easier and faster to read something in your native language.